This is me

 Welcome to my blog! Which sounds a bit contrived, but hello.

This is mostly going to be about me as a parent. My little boy is (at the time of writing) two and a half.

As I say in the header, I love my son very much. I love my husband very much, he is an excellent husband and father. But that doesn't mean that they don't occasionally do things that drive me absolutely insane. This blog is likely to mostly be me having a bit of a rant, but that doesn't change the fact that I love them both very much. Ranting (hopefully), gets it off my chest. It's also intended to let other parents know that, it's not just you. I've probably done it too, I've probably done it worse than you. I have probably done the same stupid thing that you've just done. I've probably had the same stupid argument that you've just had.  Media is getting better, there are now accounts of people finding parenthood difficult, it's not pushed that we have to be perfect all the time as heavily as it used to be, but it is still pushed, so I figure there's no harm in another person saying "Don't worry, it's not just you!"

I googled why does my baby hate me at 2.00am, because I was pretty sure that he did. I've wondered why it's so hard. I've thought about what I'd be doing if I didn't have a toddler to look after. I've been relieved when someone else is looking after him because it means that I don't have to be 'on form' for a couple of hours. I've had a melt down because I wasn't producing enough milk. I've cut my sons finger while cutting his nails and not been able to stop it bleeding for the next half hour. I've threatened my husband with a bread roll during labour. I've heard the thump and realised that my child has just fallen off something while I was in a different room. I've wondered, Am I Just Shit at This? So welcome, maybe I am just shit at this, but if you're feeling that that, that means that you're not the only one.